Our new year was blessed with Master Angela Yan’s ten day visit to our home. The profound Dharma stories that come rolling through her day and night slip in and out of my mind like heat from the fire and the taste of good things. Days begin with bowing and chanting followed by eggs, porridge, toast, jam, butter, coffee, and lots of unknown fermented veggies. Along with non-stop conversations like this:
If you do not have time to do nothing, you are not wealthy at all. Take the time to enjoy your life. That is wealth’ she’d say.
One day Angela decides she would like to get a massage, another day go to the spa, and then she mentions she’d like to do a workshop.
So a few days later she did. As people enter our house, Angela sits by the fire, makes tea and begins: There are thousands of techniques. But this is not what matters. Everybody can do this technique, that technique. What is the purpose? What’s the real purpose of what you’re doing?
One couple comes over for a Qigong healing session and they’re anxious to go into the healing room to get started. But Angela has tea first, and seems to talk about many unrelated things for over an hour. What they don’t realize is that there’s nothing to start, it’s all part of the healing. How you relax, how you talk, how you move, what you say and what you don’t, it’s all part of the healing. I watch her opening people, finding her way in. Some people get this and others do not. Neither concerns Angela, both are the same.
A good teacher, she says takes out darkness. A good teacher can see you. Finds your darkest parts and maybe stirs them up. It’s not somebody who says how wonderful you are, how good you are, how great you are. No. A good teacher leads you only in the right direction.
Everyone wants to make you into a doctor, a wife, a lawyer or something you are not. they want you to become something. But who are you without these things? A good teacher is not someone who wants you to memorize and remember and repeat back what you hear them say. A good teacher removes what is not needed to point you in the right direction. What’s the right direction? You. Your wisdom. Your natural self. she says.
But people are deluded. They do not know what they do not know. A good teacher shows you how to live.
So many people want to be healers, she says, but if you do not know how to swim, how do you teach people to do that? Stand outside the water and tell them? First you better learn how to swim. Cook up your wisdom.
How do you do that? Chant. Chanting is not a human language. It cannot be explained in human language. You better just do it. Find out out what it can do. Then maybe you will gain some wisdom. Be more humble. Respect. The more of this you have, the more you will get. ok? A good teacher does nothing for himself, it’s for you. All of it, everything is for you. A real teacher always has people behind. She has a lineage. This is very important, who stands behind you. You must pay attention to.
Be more humble, she says to me many times over the days of our retreat. ‘pay attention. don’t talk too much. ‘
Ok. I better just do it.
Om Mani Padme Hum
Watch an amazing Video of ANGELA’S QIGONG HEALING