April 26, 2017

A Love Cruise

The ever-present desire to love more | submitted by Amara Charles Back

As I’m about to venture off on a family trip to the Bahamas to celebrate my Mom’s Golden Birthday, I can’t shake the feeling that this is the trip that matters most. I’m so proud of her age, but even now she gets mad if I say how old she is, so let’s just say it’s really golden 🙂

Being an ecstatic traveler who’s often worlds away (even when I’m in the country), I know that there is an invisible, inescapable family tether that is tied to every action I take. Usually, I’m not thinking about those original knots that launched me into life, but they’re having their way all the same.

When I reflect on the love I feel, the love I’ve received, the love I’ve given, as well as the love I missed or withheld, my heart beats with the feeling I could have done more.

Sure it’ll be a turbulent cruise. Our worldly views and personal priorities differ vastly, and my family hasn’t been together this way for a long time.

As with many families, there’ll be rolling waves of affection mixed with cresting swirls of old disappointments that can’t help but rise to the surface.

I guess it’s time to put all this spiritual stuff to the test. Perhaps I can untie another knot in the way I know love. Perhaps I can look through a dusty mirror, wipe away the dirt and see again what’s real. If, as several friends have spoken in their last breathes lately, that ‘love is all there is,’ how can I stream love through all the cracks, crevices and broken places of my being to reflect more love?

I make this voyage with the ever present desire to love more. I know full well that every love dent I’ve got will be pressed, prodded and poked.

Now that’s a challenge I’m game for and I am grateful I have a family I can love more deeply. Please wish me well.

p.s. Love you Mom. Happy Golden Birthday. They all only come by once, but this one is so special.

In beauty, Amara Charles

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Colleen says

Dear Amara,

This is so beautifully written. I was particularly touched by the paragraph: ‘As I reflect on the love I feel, the love I have received…..and the love I have withheld, my heart beats with the feeling I could have done more.’

And your honesty about the complexities of familial love.

Thank you for yourraw honesty. You have tiven me courage to go out and love more fully. In the end, there is only love indeed. And I want to give it completely, leaving no dark place devoid of love.

Much love to you,

Colleen ?

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Amara Charles says

Thank You Coleen, I am really touched you wrote me to say this. I had a truly lovely trip with my Mom and family. Thanks so much for your blessings! In beauty, Amara

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victoria joy says

wishing you well. wishing your mother a happy birthday and all the blessings that come with the company of family unified in LOVE…cruise well, dear One.

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Amara Charles says

Thank You Victoria, It’s wonderful to hear from you! I really had a wonderful trip with my Mom and family. It was actually amazing. Thanks so much for your blessings! In beauty, Amara

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Helen says

Dear Amara,

Thank you for this post. Emotional cores tied to family members are so intrinsic and triggered easily. It definitely requires all the spiritual learning to untie some of these knots.

As Colleen said, thank you for your honesty, courage, humor, wisdom and reminder for us to love more.

Helen

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Amara Charles says

Oh Helen, It’s lovely to hear from you. My trip was full on family for sure!! But hey, I’m blessed to have a family! Flaws and all, we love each other. You know?

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YES! Beautiful to read and see you ina picture with your mama! AND, I LOVE this eyes-wide-open intention: “I make this voyage with the ever present desire to love more. I know full well that every love dent I’ve got will be pressed, prodded and poked.” YES! Sending so much Love as you unfold another exquisite layer, Gemma

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Amara Charles says

Hi Gemma,
Thanks so much for writing! The intention helped a LOT :-)!!
It was quite the ride for sure, but hey, it’s rich and wild family for sure :-). I want to talk to you about Q2. Right now, I am teaching Q1 & Q3. But this could change… lmk what you’re thinking. Love Amara

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